janegodzilla: (emo sparkly john mayer)
So I'm sitting here printing out a metric fuckton of class material and it looks like I'm going to be so busy this quarter...and yet all I can think is, "I'm so glad to be back at school!!!! Eeeeee!" (Also: "So many trees died for this, oh my GOD," but at least I'm printing everything double-sided?)

Anyway. This quarter marks the first time we're assigned to an actual clinical site, during which we care for real patients during an 8-hour shift one day a week. Next week we're just shadowing a nurse preceptor and observing what s/he does, but after that? Hands. fucking. ON. I'm terribly excited, and also flat-out terrified. This is scary new territory for me.

In other news, I'm trying my very best to wait until October to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas, because some part of my brain insists that I need to wait until then to watch blatantly Halloweenie movies. I'm not sure why my brain insists on this? Also, it's harrrrrrrd. I've been scratching the itch somewhat with a variety of spooky movies, but...it's not the same. Luckily, I only have a few more days to go, and then I can mainline Halloween movies to my heart's content.

...except I'll be spending most of my spare time studying, so LOOKS LIKE THE JOKE'S ON ME. HEY-O.

(I kid, I kid -- movies and tv make for great background noise while I make flashcards, which is how I ended up blasting through six seasons of "Gray's Anatomy" during the lead-up to finals. I regret nothing!)

I miss you, livejournal land. I'm back on facebook again (I rejoined because all of my classmates were there and we have a private group set up for our class and everything), but although it's undeniably handy sometimes, I still don't like it. I've been on lj in some username or another since 2001 -- back during the days when it was invite-only, haha, I'm old -- and even though it has its problems, it's still my social networking site of choice. I know I'm not posting much lately and I rarely comment, but I still read my f-list every freakin' day and love seeing what everyone's up to. So...yes. [/maudlin]
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Two weeks until I leave my job! Three weeks until student orientation! Five weeks until classes start!

I AM EXCITED! CAN YOU TELL I'M EXCITED?! Inside my head I am pretty much running around in giddy circles, like, ALL THE TIME now (except when I look at my financial aid paperwork and sort of stop breathing for a while because my 2011-2012 loans are singing to the tune of $53,000 and oh my god SO MUCH MONEY UGH UGH UGH) and I've become very, "lol whatevs!" at work, even with the stuff that used to piss me off. It's kind of a nice headspace to be in, actually. I like being amused by things that used to frustrate me. It's refreshing.

I spent most of today transcribing chart reviews for one of Dr. Z's site visits. As massive as these reports are, I can't help but find them fascinating, usually because I get to look up interesting medical conditions in an effort to figure out how they're spelled. Today's illness of interest was rhabdomyolysis, which is a condition that develops when myoglobin from damaged muscle tissue starts fucking up the kidneys. Physiologically, it's pretty complex, but at its most basic level the problem with rhabdo is twofold: 1) when muscle tissue is damaged or dying, fluid moves from the blood into the muscle tissue, which not only reduces blood volume and can lead to shock, but also reduces the amount of blood going to the kidneys and limits their ability to flush solutes; and 2) myoglobin is a big-ass protein, so it collects in the kidney tubules, starts to block them, and this can eventually result in tubular necrosis or outright kidney failure. Rhabdo shows up a lot in trauma because of the damage to skeletal muscle, and crush injuries -- especially closed ones -- are particularly susceptible.

~* the more you know *~

(I know, I know. Probably no one cares about this. But I think it's interesting and it's my stupid lj, so a paragraph of rhabdo rambling it is!)

I had to get some blood drawn today for my antibody titers, and this next part might be mildy freaky for people who have needle squicks, so I'm cutting it just in case. )

Anyway. I'm really looking forward to my mini-vacation between work and school, mostly because I'll actually get to spend a lot of time with Nate (before I hole away studying in my office for the next 15 months, ahhhhhhh) and that's always nice. Also, I'm trying to finish a knitting project I started last year, because I am FAIL when it comes to knitting things in a timely manner.


Apr. 15th, 2011 02:56 pm
janegodzilla: (gary oldman let's do it)
Bleh, I need to get a tumblr or something. When it comes to livejournal these days, I am the failingest fail that ever did fail. Here is a condensed version of the past few weeks:

- Nate's parents came to visit for a week, and it was lovely to see them again.

- I finally got an iPhone, and can now a) read books on ALL THE DEVICES, and b) play Scrabble with my cousin in Vermont. The magic of technology!

- Nate and I got a puppy! He's a four-month-old lab/border collie mix, and he's precious. We named him Cuddy, because Nate's currently reading Men at Arms and we both think "Cuddy" is a pretty awesome name*. Our Cuddy is not a dwarf, nor does he sport an amazing beard, but the name still somehow works for him.

- Aaaaand...everything else: nursing school preparations and Pokemon and excitement over Portal 2 and being all, "Man, I really need more IKEA bookshelves, 'cause the bookshelves I have sure aren't cutting it in the shelving all of my books department." I am so seriously boring, my god. :I

- No, really, it's ridiculous. I spent a good chunk of my lunch hour looking at scrubs online, all, "I know I prefer a drawstring waist to elastic for the pants, but how many pockets will I need?!?!?!" This is my life now, folks. These are my choices.

- Classes start on June 21. I am mentally keysmashing so hard at this that it would be utterly ludicrous to type it out.

* Whatever animal joins our menagerie next, I'm totally naming it Detritus. Even if it's a girl.

yay math?

Dec. 19th, 2010 07:11 pm
janegodzilla: (emo sparkly john mayer)
One of the things that cracks me up about Red Dead Redemption: Undead Nightmare is how nonchalant everyone is about the Four Horses of the Apocalypse. It makes sense, kinda -- as Nate pointed out, when the undead are roaming the land in great numbers and things like zombie bears exist, people aren't going to get too het up about a creepy horse that weeps blood. But I still think it's hilarious that no one says stuff like, "So...I noticed your horse was on fire," or, "Not to be rude, but are you aware that your horse is swarming with locusts?" Hee.

Anyway, I finally took my math placement test the other night so that I could get into statistics, nutrition, and/or chemistry. I've been putting this off for two years, because I haven't taken math in, like, A DECADE and lord knows I'm not all that confident in my math abilities at the best of times. Perhaps this is why I waited until the last possible minute to get this shit figured out. Luckily, my week and a half of frantic cramming paid off and I qualified for statistics, and I'm feeling much better about the whole thing now that I'm finally registered for a class.

The guy at the testing center was hilarious, though. There are three or four different math tests you can take depending on what you're trying to get into, and for stats I had to take the test with advanced and college-level algebra with some trig thrown in there for...I don't know, variety, I guess. So I take my test and there are things on there that I totally didn't study, like factorials and imaginary numbers and bullshit like that, and afterwards the guy prints out my results and is like, "Yay, you qualify for statistics!"

I go, "SWEET!" and do a fist-pump, because I am a noble and dignified flower that way.

Then! THEN! Testing guy gets all sadface, and he says, "But you didn't qualify for calculus or trigonometry, though. You'd have to go through college algebra before you could take those."

Testing guy: What?
Me: Dude, all I care about is stats. I haven't done trigonometry since I was sixteen. Sixteen.
Testing guy: How old are you now?
Testing guy: OH. So...I guess that's okay, then?
Me: Yes, quite.

It was just...I don't know, it's like he was trying so hard to make me feel better about the fact that I didn't qualify for things that are ridiculously over my head anyway, and it was amusing. I'm still kind of a amazed I qualified for statistics in the first place, given that I outright guessed on three of the four factorial questions before I remembered what the fuck factorials were. I mean. Factorials?! What the fuck.

/cool story


Sep. 1st, 2010 09:54 am
janegodzilla: (harry potter before hogwarts)

After another week from hell, things are finally calm enough that I'm not three seconds away from total meltdown at any given moment. We made a big moving run last Sunday, I had my final last Tuesday, we made our second big moving run a week ago, and since then we'd been shuttling things over in my car and cleaning the old place as best we could (without any help from former roommate, I might add -- THANKS FOR THAT, DUDE, YOU ARE THE MOST USELESS PERSON EVER) while trying to get things set up at the new place. We still haven't had a chance to get the baseboards in, but that's okay -- most of the furniture is where we want it, we have internet again, I'm slowly getting the kitchen set up and Nate's getting his garage arranged, and the other night we put up a bunch of artwork. It feels more and more like home every day, and even the missing baseboards aren't stressing me out as badly as they were two weeks ago. Plus, as of today we are officially done with the old house AND the former roommate, and to that I can only say one thing: HUZZAH.

It feels very much like fall right now, which makes me happy. Today the weather reminded me so much of Bellingham that it left me a little stunned. There's just something about this combination of elements, the rain and damp and cold combined with warm, blustery wind that smells of the ocean. Scent and touch seem to be the senses that trigger my memory the hardest, and while walking up to Trauma Conference this morning, that marine-scented wind got me just right and it was like...boom. Eighteen again, a homesick little pseudo-gothlet with purple hair and humongous boots and a Jhonen Vasquez obsession, lugging my books across the bricks of Red Square to buy a mocha before class, Invader Zim lunchbox purse banging against my hip.

I figured I should cut this, just in case. Potentially triggering for depression and suicidal ideation. )


Aug. 2nd, 2010 11:34 pm
janegodzilla: (sure sign of insanity)
It's weird -- I didn't do anything productive at all yesterday (unless you consider baking cupcakes productive, I guess), and yet I still feel completely stressed-out and overwhelmed. I suspect the impending move is responsible for most of it, because I haven't even started packing and it's happening this month. THIS MONTH. And I have so much shit left to do that I am thisclose to having a giant panicky meltdown, because giant panicky meltdowns are just how I roll.

I mean. We have to finish painting the kitchen, prep the third bedroom for painting, paint the third bedroom, measure all the rooms for the reflooring, pick a floor and buy the damn thing, and then either refloor ourselves or hire someone to do it for us, AND, while all of this is going on, start packing up shit at the current place so that moving can happen in a timely and expedient fashion. And I have to do all of this while putting in my 40 hours a week for a job that's become a massive headache and a half, studying for my current class, and getting my shit together for my OHSU application in September.

Plus the usual business of grocery shopping and cooking and whatnot, although I feel sort of silly counting those as stressful. It's just that I've been a vegetarian for two months and I've been making a concerted effort to eat vegan, and sometimes the thought of fixing a healthy veg meal is just one thing too many and I'm all, "FUCK IT, I AM EATING CARROTS AND FLATBREAD AND HUMMUS, FOREVER."

Or I freak out and bake cupcakes, whatever seems like a good idea at the time. I don't really know how my brain works when it comes to these things.

Worst of all, I'm starting to really worry about Ivan. He's still as loud and affectionate as ever, and he's still eating, but he's also throwing up a lot and shedding way more than he should be and he's losing weight again, and the tumor has gotten much larger. Thinking about what this could mean makes my heart hurt, so...that's all I'm going to say about it right now.
janegodzilla: (OMG RAPTORS)
Oh my god, good things are FINALLY HAPPENING. First, it looks like the closing is actually going to go down today. WE MIGHT HAVE A HOUSE BY THE END OF THE DAY WTF WTF WTF :D:D:D:D:D:D. The bank didn't have all their paperwork done last week, so Nate had to file another extension, but this week...this week money is being moved around and papers are being signed and Nate's going out to the title place this morning and! And! House! Of our own! Finally!

In other good news, Nate's getting promoted to banquet sous chef, which is a REALLY BIG DEAL -- banquets bring in a lot of their revenue, a LOT, and being the banquet sous is a big responsibility. But they're confident he can handle it, and I know he can handle it (on account of his being awesome and all), so the whole thing is pretty exciting. Not only will he be making more money, but his schedule will be more flexible AND I'll actually get to see him in the evenings again. Like, earlier than midnight! THIS IS VERY COOL.

Also, I got an A in A&P III, but that's noteworthy only because I knew -- based on the points and my test scores -- that I wasn't going to. But she apparently decided to curve the final scores, so...yay? I didn't think she was going to for a while there, but when your entire class can't seem to score higher than an 83% on every goddamn test and/or quiz, that's probably a sign that something is wrong with the way you're teaching. In class, she would say things like, "I just don't understand why this keeps happening. Not ONE of you broke the curve this time either, and it just doesn't make any sense!" *headdesk* *headdesk* *headdesk* No one broke the curve because your tests were badly written and you teach in a confusing way! Why do you think this keeps happening?! Gahhhhhhhhhhh.

But...it's over and she curved the final scores and I still have my 4.0, so I still have a shot of getting into OHSU when I apply this fall. Hooray!

To recap:
Today might be the day for the house.
Nate got a totally awesome radcakes promotion.
My grades are still on track.

Good things, yep yep.


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