Being looked at is pretty much the last thing on my agenda, and when I do notice someone looking? It tends to make me profoundly uncomfortable.
I feel this way about my everyday wear. I went through about six months (and even now still, I do it once or twice a week), where I would wear a white, button-up shirt, either my Slytherin or Hitman tie, a black skirt down to the knees, black knee highs, and a pair of Mary Janes. Once I started getting sexual attention from creepy men, I stopped for a brief amount of time before realizing, "Oh, hai. I wear this because I LOOK GOOD IN IT and because IT'S COMFORTABLE."
But then, whole background of modesty of thing, I felt like *I* was responsiblity for bringing their...fetish...whatever...to light. I'm a young, busty, rather nice-looking female, and I'm parading around in this? But then I realized that I wasn't parading around; I wasn't carrying myself any differently than normal, I was just Cynthia walking, talking, my legs and chest covered perfectly--so was it REALLY my fault that they took it sexually?
Do you think it's the same with bikinis? Perhaps I'm just jealous because I could never pull one off, but I've always known bikini girls who are there to just be looked at.
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Date: 2008-04-29 05:04 pm (UTC)I feel this way about my everyday wear. I went through about six months (and even now still, I do it once or twice a week), where I would wear a white, button-up shirt, either my Slytherin or Hitman tie, a black skirt down to the knees, black knee highs, and a pair of Mary Janes. Once I started getting sexual attention from creepy men, I stopped for a brief amount of time before realizing, "Oh, hai. I wear this because I LOOK GOOD IN IT and because IT'S COMFORTABLE."
But then, whole background of modesty of thing, I felt like *I* was responsiblity for bringing their...fetish...whatever...to light. I'm a young, busty, rather nice-looking female, and I'm parading around in this? But then I realized that I wasn't parading around; I wasn't carrying myself any differently than normal, I was just Cynthia walking, talking, my legs and chest covered perfectly--so was it REALLY my fault that they took it sexually?
Do you think it's the same with bikinis? Perhaps I'm just jealous because I could never pull one off, but I've always known bikini girls who are there to just be looked at.