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[janegodzilla]

Oh my god, I forgot how much work it is to look for jobs. My eyeballs feel like they're going to melt. On the plus side, though, I made it through the grueling OHSU applications process and was able to apply for several of their admin positions, and tomorrow I'm going to whip out some cover letters and get resumes sent off for a bunch of writing/editing jobs. I doubt I'll be lucky enough to get said jobs, which is why I'm also applying for admin positions at places like OHSU. :P

I'm just really, reeeeeeally tired of being a paralegal. It's weird. I can feel myself burning out. There's a horrible, scary part of me that just...doesn't want to show up at work anymore, ever, not because I don't want to work ('cause I do, actually), but because I don't want to work there. Occasional forays to technical seminars aside, everything I do is mind-numbingly dull. One of my coworkers keeps passing all of her crap jobs along to me (seriously, that's a whole rant in and of itself), I don't feel any sort of satisfaction in what I do, half the people I work with drive me bonkers, and I'm BORED. I'M SO GODDAMN BORED.

But I'm busy, too. Those of you who have worked office jobs know how awful that is, to be insanely busy all the time while simultaneously being bored out of your skull. Doing admin work at a hospital probably won't be any better in the long run, but I'm thinking short-term right now. I have to. Because sometimes I look at the other paralegals, the ones who've been at the firm for five, eight years, and it scares the crap out of me that I might one day become the hopeless, simmering fonts of sheer rage and despair they are. I wish I could say I'm exaggerating, but...my god, the paralegal coordinator? She's the angriest, most relentlessly frustrated girl I've ever met in my entire life...and she's been there for almost nine years. I'm coming up on my third. It's definitely time to move on.

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[inker-alpha.livejournal.com]

"Those of you who have worked office jobs know how awful that is, to be insanely busy all the time while simultaneously being bored out of your skull."
Gah! sister, truer words never spoken. my day job is always busy and at the same time so not interesting. I'm always planning ahead to personal time and all that junk I talk about over on my LJ. and yet I'm not even trying to find a job that might be more meaningful.

[janegodzilla.livejournal.com]

Job hunting is hard work. And depressing. Sometimes, it seems like the only jobs available are just different versions of what I'm already doing.

Ultimately, my goal is to save enough money that I can drop to doing part-time work (for the bills and the insurance), and spend the rest of my time working seriously on making the writing/publishing/freelancing thing a reality. Of course, if I find something I love, that may not be necessary, but...it's the end goal I have in mind at the moment.

*clinks glass* Here's to us office drones.

[gutlesswonder.livejournal.com]

Editing jobs, eh? So what are your prospects for that if you don't mind me asking? I'm just curious about how things are on the West Coast because my sister (works at a literary agency) seems to think it's mostly a business/popularity contest here in New York.

[janegodzilla.livejournal.com]

I'm looking mostly at businesses and magazines for editing jobs (and a few e-publishers, where the position is a telecommuting one), since aside from a few small indie presses, there's a whole lot of nothing in Oregon/Washington for book publishing. I'm not sure about what the situation is like in California, but as far as I know, New York is really the place to go for getting in with the big companies. I know there are a few literary agencies out of California, but I have no idea what their hiring practices are.

I think it's a tight game all over, unfortunately. I'm more interested in the copy-editing/proofing side of things, but it's a hard business to break into. :P