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Apr. 28th, 2010 05:24 pmBLUH. Life is kind of overwhelming right now. Work has been deeply stressful of late, to the point where I sort of want to just hide under my desk for a while. I know it wouldn't accomplish anything -- there are no little office fairies who will flitter about doing my work for me, no magical talking mice to answer the phone and respond to emails -- but the idea of just...hiding for a while has an undeniable appeal.
I nearly lost it today, which was horrifying. It was just one thing after another, and my to-do list kept growing, and I couldn't seem to cross anything off because every new thing was OMG!URGENT and it just...wouldn't...stop, and this rising bubble of panic started to grow in my chest and I knew that in a few moments someone was going to walk into the office and want to know why I hadn't picked up the mail yet, and with a sudden and horrifying clarity I realized that I was going to completely LOSE MY SHIT when this happened. Since I can't bear the idea of crying at work (in front of coworkers, no less), I decided that it was break time and went to water Awesome Boss of Awesome's plants, since she asked me to care for them while she's gone.
It actually helped, a little. Plants are nice that way.
In non-work news, there is the issue of THE HOUSE, which is so big and awesome and scary that it totally deserves the capslock I'm giving it. I haven't written about THE HOUSE yet, because the process is a very slow one and I'm terrified that I will somehow jinx things if I get too excited or talk about it too much. Right now, it's one thing at a time. First, tomorrow's inspection. Then, Nate's loan. It's been pre-approved, but still. After that, it's everything connected to the closing process, and if all of those things go through without a hitch, then rest assured that I will be babbling about THE HOUSE until everyone is downright sick of it. Until then...talking about it kind of freaks me out. I want it too much, is the thing, and whenever I want something this much I always fear it will be taken away from me. Keep your fingers crossed.
All right, back to studying for me. I can't believe we're already at midterms. :P
I nearly lost it today, which was horrifying. It was just one thing after another, and my to-do list kept growing, and I couldn't seem to cross anything off because every new thing was OMG!URGENT and it just...wouldn't...stop, and this rising bubble of panic started to grow in my chest and I knew that in a few moments someone was going to walk into the office and want to know why I hadn't picked up the mail yet, and with a sudden and horrifying clarity I realized that I was going to completely LOSE MY SHIT when this happened. Since I can't bear the idea of crying at work (in front of coworkers, no less), I decided that it was break time and went to water Awesome Boss of Awesome's plants, since she asked me to care for them while she's gone.
It actually helped, a little. Plants are nice that way.
In non-work news, there is the issue of THE HOUSE, which is so big and awesome and scary that it totally deserves the capslock I'm giving it. I haven't written about THE HOUSE yet, because the process is a very slow one and I'm terrified that I will somehow jinx things if I get too excited or talk about it too much. Right now, it's one thing at a time. First, tomorrow's inspection. Then, Nate's loan. It's been pre-approved, but still. After that, it's everything connected to the closing process, and if all of those things go through without a hitch, then rest assured that I will be babbling about THE HOUSE until everyone is downright sick of it. Until then...talking about it kind of freaks me out. I want it too much, is the thing, and whenever I want something this much I always fear it will be taken away from me. Keep your fingers crossed.
All right, back to studying for me. I can't believe we're already at midterms. :P