and then we came to the end

One of the paralegals was laid off today.

It wasn't me, although I'm honestly kind of shocked that it wasn't, given that I'm the newest and youngest member of the paralegal group. All things considered, I can't decide whether I'm happy or vaguely disappointed that I wasn't the one to get the axe. Isn't that horrible? It's not anything that E. did -- there just wasn't enough work to go around, and when I was talking to him this afternoon, he said he was actually relieved that it finally happened. He'd suspected something was coming ever since his project load started to dry up, and the firm is giving him several months of severance pay so that he won't be completely fucked in the meantime. It still sucks, though. He's a great guy and deserves a lot better than this. Over five years with the firm, and they jettison him just like that. Poof.

I can't help but feel a little guilty that I'm actively looking for another job while I'm still employed, yet he's the one who gets laid off. It strikes me as sort of cosmically unfair. I don't know. I'm not making any sense. It's possible I may get laid off anyway -- during their conversation, I guess the office manager hinted to E. that there may be more downsizing ahead in the next few months, which, given that our firm is making more money now than ever, is funny in a really awful sort of way.

Lawyers. Bah.

and then we came to the end

One of the paralegals was laid off today.

It wasn't me, although I'm honestly kind of shocked that it wasn't, given that I'm the newest and youngest member of the paralegal group. All things considered, I can't decide whether I'm happy or vaguely disappointed that I wasn't the one to get the axe. Isn't that horrible? It's not anything that E. did -- there just wasn't enough work to go around, and when I was talking to him this afternoon, he said he was actually relieved that it finally happened. He'd suspected something was coming ever since his project load started to dry up, and the firm is giving him several months of severance pay so that he won't be completely fucked in the meantime. It still sucks, though. He's a great guy and deserves a lot better than this. Over five years with the firm, and they jettison him just like that. Poof.

I can't help but feel a little guilty that I'm actively looking for another job while I'm still employed, yet he's the one who gets laid off. It strikes me as sort of cosmically unfair. I don't know. I'm not making any sense. It's possible I may get laid off anyway -- during their conversation, I guess the office manager hinted to E. that there may be more downsizing ahead in the next few months, which, given that our firm is making more money now than ever, is funny in a really awful sort of way.

Lawyers. Bah.